... it pretty obvious dat u like him.. or maybe i shld say love him...
no wonder u like baking... its becos u bake for him...

lol

oh man its really a long time since i last blogged.. colin is getting lazy, stressed, tired and of cos still as down...
went to some beaches today.. total waste of time... went to town for movie... 'wanted' sucks.. waste $$$... don watch...
i noe u love him...
i love you...
how???
colin is down..
veyr down..
very say...
cos i love u...
still..

playback

friday...
class bonding.. haha fun .. azhari dance so funny.. haha eat drink and play!
saturday...
very fun day! went seng siong .. then went pamela's hse to bbq! haha very fun.. played whole day haha.. threw may and pamela down the pool XD haha very fun
sorry pamela for messing up ur hse and thanks..
sunday...
boring day... nth much don wanna post...
monday...
o level chinese.. the paper kinda... donnoe how to say.. but alot ppl say easy but my chinese just sucks, so... haha then went shooting wif part b... boring...
tuesday...
went shooting again... sian..2 out of 3 guns spoit.. lameshit...
haha
today...
happy day.. celebbrate wif ms kho.. bye ms kho all the best...
iloveu... hais... u love him....

happy birthday???

happy birthday??? not really... i am not very happy today...
thanks to all thoe who had wished me, thanks to all those who had given me presents and cards.. thanks alot..
i was expecting u to be giving alone.. but it didnt turn out the way i wanted...
shall upload some fotos when i am free...
once again.. thanks all...

tis little spark..

trng today is tiring... probably becos i am tired... photo taking...zzz.. guess i am turning old...
last day as a 15 year old kid...
my sis is back from taiwan.. went there for2 weeks.. got me a pink t-shirt...
ppl u noe wad, i am happy today... becos i realise there is tis little sprk in my heart.. i hope tis spark could become a comfortable fire to burn away those trees and twigs dat was in my heart for so long... come burn them away.. but... to start a fire with only dat little bit ok spark is rather tough...iloveyou....

boring day...

quite a boring day.. my shoulders are aching... tmr is vesak day...
my toe is hurting more and more.. gotta go foe a check up... stupid fall during pe lesson...
i love u.. and u... love.. him...

kayat

tired after a long day.. went kallang wif sec 2s to kayatking... shall upload some photos next time... too tired..
i don noe wad happen?

happy mother's day!

haha wished my mum happy mother'sday on exactly 12 last night!! haha so happy!! its going to be a beautiful day up ahead!!! I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!!
haha i also wished dorothy happy birthday on 12midnight haha but jeremy was faster i was second. haha

yeah! exams are over... but.... chem spa next monday! all the best all! a busy and stressful week!! finally can catch my breath... somehow everyone says the physics paper was!@$#^%&*(*&^%$ . but i find id it !@$#@#@% only.. hehe slightly shorter.. i find chemwas worse.. but i mange to passmy chem.. ms kho say got improvement.. so happpy!! yeah sam i noe ur going to say i am finally happy right? the rest of the paper was quite fine.. oh ya! human geog! kind flung it.. crap my way through the last 16 marks or so...

haha glad dat everyting is over now.. going to my aunt's house in no timeto visit my cousin... hais...alright lets not talk about dat.. tmr is mother's day! and.. dorothy's birthday!

to all mothers in the worldwide world: may all of u be happy and ur children to be filial..

to dorothy: happy brirthday and may all ur wish come true. stay happy!

to the idiot: would u pls stop pestering her???

i love you

.... i love you....and u love him.. and he love u... i am the extra

i hate u

i hate u... i have got ZERO respect for u.. ZERO!!!
ur no father of mine..

i love u most

i realise i love u alot... MUMMY !! hehe...
but i love u too...

down again

hais for some reasons, colin is down again...

2 days of tragedy

ytd...
sad day... my aunt's dog was found out to have nose cancer... and her daughter had a relapse of cancer... sad day...
went je...
today..
not sad la but... kinda... ahh foget it... went library.. shall not explain... hais

exams

exams are here...
english kick it off.. today's paper was tough... not good...
went library wif adeline and tiffany after dat..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

fine days

these 2 days was fine.. nth much happen except dat i was damn pissed off ytd...
we knew it .. u lied to us... don treat us like fools

boring day

ytd...
went pizza hut to celebrate elaine and nat b'day.. then went home... boring... came out at around 8 pm.. meet yanjing they all to play basketball.. yanjing is noisy...
today..
1 word ... BORING! finish my 1 and only hwk...gotta do some revision...
colin is still down...

still not happy

sch was fine today... 1st lessons of the day.. eng.. test... boring.. pe was sucky... mdm yee wants the whole class to play some stupid game.. she don allow us to play captains bal T_Tll . chem was fine... wasnt listening actually. after recess=total slack.. humanaties, english, geog and chinese = to rubics lesson.. boring... went pool after sch for a while...
colin is still down.... is there anybody who can lent me their ears?

wrong path

wrong path chosen... i shouldnt have chose tis path...
y didnt i learn my lesson??
i should have walk the path dat will be rocky 1st then smooth... instead i decide to walk the smooth then rocky... i have the sweet days then the sour and bitter days now...
i must admit... colin is very down.. he is giving up...

no reactions

not much reactions from u...
is there anybody dat can cheer me up??
colin is very very down today...

down

i realise i always try to cheer ppl up... i just make myself look like a fool just to cheer ppl up..but i was nvr happy.. nobody had ever try to cheer me up.. i can nvr be happy..
some photos of obs sabah trip... how i wish i slipped and fell down the mountain and nvr been found... in dat case i will nvr see u loving him.. i will nvr be so down.. how i wish i have nvr returned... those days in sabah are probably the only days i am happy for the pass half a year...

...

ytd actually suppose to go vch.. but didnt go in the end... sam last minute cannot make it.. so left me and sok... so i decided not to go oso liao... went jp to buy something instead... so boring.. when i am free then i upload the sabah trip pics.

some photos of my ex wallaby trip last november...

boring

boring day...
ytd trng was fine.. ran like 6 rounds round the sch .. 15 chin ups..
meeting samantha and sok later for anderson sec choir concert..
so boing at home..
thanks natalie and adeline..

still down

i donnoe y... i am still very down...
i found out 1 thing today.. u are talking bout me... its obvious...
colin is still very down...

down

1 word... down...i donnoe y i havent been happy for a very very long time already..

or maybe i just know...

come on colin.. don bluff urself anymore.. u noe it deep down.. ur just not accepting the fact..

come on colin admit.. ITS ALL OVER U RETARD COLIN! WAKE UP!

hais

colin is down again.. i realise i havent been happy for quite some time..
i love you..

afflirmation ceremony

went to indoor stadium today... sec 1 afflirmation ceremony. quite boring.. the swiss wind band from swiss cottage is just great.. they are just fantastic!! they are the ncc command band.. i feel dat they are just so together... i will upload some pictures of them when i get from mr chia...

or should i say

Or should i say i am not only down.. i am very down... is there anybody out there who can feel it? is there anyone who can lend me his or her ears... wads the point anyway.. even if the world world lend me their ears she is still like dat.. she is not going to feel my pain...i feel so sad.. u are only answer for the sake for answer. i knew u didnt want to... if becos u saw it...
colin is so sad... sitting in a corner don even noe wad to do...
i love u, u love him...

cultural night

haha tis is the clearer version but hor my solo not inside cos dat time kailoon not ready haha.

haha wait till i get the complete version from jeremy then i will upload it.

haha some other videos dat we took be for performance.

do view the videos they are interesting and funny..

colin is down....

cultural night

ytd was our last performance... went to sch morning and took my chem test cos i missed it on wed. then move all the drums and ourselves to s'pore poly.. realise i didnt bring my costume pants and my medicine.. luckily call my sis earl before she left the hse..
1st rehearsal was alright.. then went for lunch.. after dat got 2nd reheasal.. tis 1 better.. then go for prize giving ceremony..
rest for a whilethen the main culturalnight begin...
one of the best we perform.. quite happy wif it..
then move drums and ourselves back to sch...go for supper... went home bathe and slp...
wake up and blog this..
i was really down ytd.. y him?? .... iloveyou

do u noe??

u didnt call. u didnt sms.. u didnt ask... u didnt care..
did u ever noe??
down...

still sick

hais.. still quite sick...
tink will go sch tmr.. die oso must go if not miss 2 days lesson very jialat..
sian...
i love you..

sick

oh man.. woke up tis morning then realise my body isnt right.

very sick now...

hope can recover fast enuff to return to sch tmr

back from ADC

haha i am back from ADC!!!
last friday..
camp... tiring only slept for like less than 1 hour! haha
saturday..
reach home at around 1430... slept all the way until unday 730 haha skipped dinner.. slept for 17 hours straight XD
sunday..
pack up for ADC... sian ah!!!!!!!!!!!
monday...
ADC started.. boring like siao.. 1st day the in process was freaking boring.. then all the lectures sucks more.. until afternoon 4plus go parade square train in rain.. haha time was freaking slow on 1st day.. sucks...
tuesday...
PT cancel due to rain.. yay! haha then got for 3hours drils... haha at least time is much faster durig practical then lectures. then afternoon got more lectures.. night time was fun we got cohesion night.. all get high.. haha
wednesday...
wednesday was fast.. morning PT cancelled again.. haha yay! then morning got sword drill. tis was very fun... the sword drill is interesting.. rifle drill is boring.. but learn alot things. afternoon was colours drills which is flag drill.. sucks.. cannot balance the pole 1... haha night got ADC test..
thursday..
finally got PT.. haha the got photo taking then graduation ceremony..

conclusion...
ADC is boring but u can learn alot there.. haha alpha 2 is a nice platoon to work wif.. thanks to Hidayat!! lol BLOODY HELL!! lol

proposal!!!!!!

waaaa sian!!!!!!!!! chionging proposal!!!!!!!!!!!
fridat sch camp
next week monday to thursday ADC!!!!!!!!
worse i going alone!!!!!!!!!!!!
sian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hais......what to do??? 2 at 1 time??? hais...
quality or speed???

update

hmmm. havent update for quite sometime... went back to sch today for home coming day.. perform... haha tiring.. went home wanted to call mac but forget number.. haha but eventually still get the number .. haha... boring... super tired...
ytd...
To Part C: welcome tea was a total cork up.. everything is so messy.. pls improve... its becos mr chia save u all if not we will carry on scolding... very disappointed
sian... march holiday = gone cos of 1 camp...
AND!!!! supernumerary course is total crazy... 4 days only we nid to do 100 chin ups!!! 100 u noe?? crazy... if not how? they minus mark.. sian
and people.. don be lame....

things are not going the way i want...

things are definately not going the way i want... waited and wait but still not going right...hais...
how?how?how?? someone help me pls... nobody wants to listen to me...
went to library wif natalie and finish revising speed of reaction... chemistry... SIAN! haha
i love you...
colin is down again... hais

interview

went to hq for tis interview for outstanding cadet wif yan jing.. haha but only 1 of us will get.. ppl!!!! u noe wad!! ?? BUC RESULTS ARE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha but i donnnoe yet... wish fuhua ncc good luck!

party

haha went elaine's hse ytduntil 12 midnight.. quite fun lol! haha laid all the oranges on elaine's baby bed haha.. then play blackjack.. lost but in the end hao lan me and kai loon went to play wif the adults... won back.. hahah.. going to haolan's hse today.. balh blah blah... ok byebye.. <3

down

down... very down... hais... colin sucks

borimg...

went to my aunt hse ytd... boring... 4 dogs there.. haha 1 is very old liao.. i tink 13yrs old.. dog 1 year= human 7 yrs.. in other word the dog is alreay 13 multiply by 7 years old!! 101 years old.. omg..haha. my cousins baby twins are just so cute.. very indeed.. their name is gerald and gabriel.. ya put together... u get GG!!! haha.. if anyone wish to see their cute face, just simply go my friendster, got 1 profile at my featured friends, name ' alvin' dats my cousins wife.. in side got alot cute pics of the kids. haha
waaa must do alot hwk today liao... erm... physics, maths & chinese.. sian... still got camp proposal... wth...
btw got new song... starting abit soft, so don just close the window if u cant hear anyting.. just wait...
ok i dats all.. haha
and samantha don give me dat face.. XP haha no offence.. XP and dont nid search haha nth hidden.. haha
takecare all and thx for reading...

colin sucks

well wad else can i say?? colin ur a freaking loser and u sucks!

new year eve

quite a fun day.. haha sch concert end at 930.. quite nice..then all go home.. reached home and realise my parents went out.. sisters still slping.. haha
then help out abit throughout the day.. i scrub the floor ok. guai hor.

think back...
last yr second day of cny, went to hospital. this year..donnoe where to go liao becos grandma went to heaven last september.. so no place to go..
but most prob is go da yi hse la..
sad...

training

boring day.. boring training...
alfred injured.. sent to hospital..
boring.. sad week.. i love you.. painful..

hais

still very down... hais i love her<3>

down

hais.. for some resons dat i myself donnoe i am feeling very down today... colin is not colin... or may i noe y.. colin u love her right?

unlucky

haha ytd training was high.. everyone wasso happy.. then suddenly the sec 2s all get too high and decded to 'rape'me.. all ram me pound on me.. right behind me was a huge rock.. my tailbone got injured.. freaking pain.. mr chia send me home 1st.. then whent to see doctor.. the doc says if the pain doesn't subside then go for x ray... still pain now lor.. but better than ytd.. ytd was hell until i ate the pain reliever..
haha damn sway.. stupid rock..

i miss alot things XD

haha i realise i miss alot things.. i miss wallaby, the people, ob sabah, junhong, samantha zhi wei sok and many many many more!! ah!!!! i miss sec 3!!!! i miss ah ma... i missmany many things haha..
waa drums training for cultural night start tmr.. haha..
i miss all of u!!! (to all ob sabah ppl esp those mention above)
mark & brit!!! i miss you both!!!
!!!
haha new song!!! bad day by..... ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS MOVIE!!! LOL
SUPER CUTE MAN

haha campfire last night.. started preparing at around 3 waaa tiring.. start at around 7 plus.. fun!! damn hot.. haha the last part wa really hot.. my face is like buring like siao.. imagine all of us started throwing bombs 1 after another haha huge explosion! lol .
the camp fire ended later then ncc decide not to help clean up cos we did all the setting up.. then stay overnight in sch haha.. waaa then in the middle of the night all of them go out clean cos chuan heng ask all the npcc and scouts go slp ythen ncc go help... BUT.. they all go then leave me in the room slping.. nobody call me up haha.. feel so bad...
then morning was super scary... damn scared cos the parade nearing.. haha lucky no cork up in the parade.. conclusion is parade commander is stressful haha... heng arh nth happen cos i damn scare.. haha
then after that cca display begin here and there.. then got pushup competition between all parts haha part B did 533pumpings in 10 mins part C did 623 pumpings oso iun 10 mins... haha part D POWER!! over 630 in 5 mins haha.. then we don wan to do le cos win laio haha
then go play basket ball wif ncc ppl
haha wad a day...
sec 4 is super stressful...
i love you <3

sad

hais... boring sia tmr nid to go sch liao!!!!!! argh!!!!!! sai man!!!!!!!
tmr got contingent training.... <3
thursday got parade rehearsal. <3
friday nid to help out in campfire and nid to stay overnight in sch.. <3
sat got cca display and parade. <3
waaaa fully booked!!! haha <3

today is ah ma's 100th day in heaven...
miss her...

tired

haha another boring day... sian... sian...sian...sian...
went to jurong swimming complex for a swim...
20 laps in 30mins yeah!!!! (quite fast ok)
haha tired..
play dota.. wth so many leavers until i sian diao and stop playing...
ahhhh ... yawning.... boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you

stressed up

waaaa super stressed up!!!!
went to sch today to do spring cleaning and the banner thingy and wax the festival drums...waaaa damn tired... i carried 7 drums today(proud) haha.. then wax them... then carry all the stuff out for to clean tyhe room got 1 cockroach there haha.. killed by perry.. sad... super dirty lar!!! spend hours cleaning.. then go parade square to help perry out wif the banner.. its damn big.. its around 2.5 to 3 stories high..ake very long to do.. somemore not complete... cos all part c ps!!! left me yuwei weirong jia hao and jeremy there.. all is clts and adrain's friend do 1 lor.. thanks to them..
hey all of u .......................WAKE UP UR BLOODY IDEA LA!! DON BECOS OF UR OWN PERSONAL MATTER LIKE HWK NVR FINISH THEN LEAVE EARLY!! ITS LIKE WTH!! ITS OUR UNIT!! OUR ROOM OUR BANNER!! DON ALL RUN HOME TO HIDE!! THEN BECOME LEFT SO LITTLE PPL THERE!! WE DON EVEN HAVE ENUFF PPL TO STRAIGHTEN THE CLOTH WHEN PAINTING!! U ALL THINK THE CLTS AND THE PART Cs WHO STAY BEHIND OWN ALL OF U A BLOODY LIVING ARH??!! EH PART C ALREADY LEH!! COME ON WAKE UP UR BLOODY IDEA!!!

Merry christmas!!!

haha MERRY CHRISTMASS ALL!!!!!!!!
went to city harvest church wif angel and her friends todaqy.. quite fun and meaningful actually!!!!
yeah christmas is hear!!!!
hais colin its time to let go... she found the other half.. just get out of her side... get a life u idiot!
colin is a bloody idiot.. JUST LET GO! DAT SIMPLE! Y CAN'T I DO IT? she already have the other half... argh samantha ch'ng u better not find tis
i wish everyone in tis world a happy and meaningful christmas.. haha 26th which is tmr is chuan heng's b'day and the 2005 tsunami rememberance day lol!!!

ytd...
went out wif zhi wei, hafiz, eugene, sam, sok and dorothy(not fuhua 1). went ceni leisure... watch golden compass.. ok la .. not bad... but the starting sucks... after dat went around orchard to find a place to eat.. realise whole orchard only got fast food and an indonesian resturant dat is halal... went to city to eat instead... then stroll along the singapore river.. sat down at near the merlion wif sok and zhi wei until 1030... went home.. tired.. slp...
today...
stayed home, settle some ncc stuffs... boring day memories arent so easily be erase...
so boring... holiday nth to do 1... sian.... colin is tired... really tired...

haha

haha stayed home all day.. so boring..haha...
haha everyone when smsing me, please tell me ur name cos my contacts all screwed up.. just tell me ur name even if u noe dat i got ur contacts cos i may not have.. ok dats complicated.. haha haiya just tell me ur name when u sms me thx and sorry.=)
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
haha haha haha haha
hais i lead sad life

boring

another boring day... haha you ren pitrie and yong jia came my hse today.. suppose to do admin stuffs but all thx to daniel for cocking up everyting.. when downstairs to play basketball.. actually planned to go swimming today, but basketball is good enuff le... boring day.. bleah XD no hwk done today haha

hais.. i tot i got over it in sabah.. no... back in sg.. saw the picture and everyting came back... just hang on colin... see!! shldnt have come back... y?? y cant i get over it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????? its a nightmare dat huant me for months and i get over it... y?? help me someone pls... sg... past present... hope not future.. a land where all unhappy memories stays... colin,, u can only keep everything to hemself....

haha lazy

haha everyone i am lazy to update the full details of the sabah trip cos its freaking long..
those interested please scroll down find the link'penguin'.. i will lead u to sam's blog.. there's a very long post there haha..
my activities is the sameas hers so just read if ur interested.. lol
happy ready
haha thx sam aka penguin..=)

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

i miss all of u

i miss jun hong, zhi wei , hafiz, sam, eileen, sok,jomian, xing xuan, rachel, aida and MANY MANY MORE!!!!
WOW SABAH WAS INDEED HEAVEN... LIFE IS QUIET, AND THE AIR THERE WAS DELICIOUS!!!I MISS SABAH SO MUCH..

jungle ex was super tiring!!! haha slipped of the slopes countless tme, its so slippery lor! encountered wif 2 snakes and tons of leeches!!! haahha home stay was fun!!! 3 days expedition totally kills all of us... YEAH WE LEARN HOW TO SET UP FIRE AND USE A PARANG!!!!

sailing ex was fun too!! not as tirinig! almost all got sicksea!! haha the wind was like... wooohooo!!! lol! reach the island stayed overnight.. set up a campfire all by ourselves!!!woohoo proud!! and L.C. says she had nvr see participats set up such a beautiful fire!! lol!

mountain ex was the highlight!! 4 days!! haha stay at a hostel 1st.. saw someting dat i will rmb fo life...~~~ damn foggy and quite cold arnd 18 degrees.. haha next day went to the entrance of the park... arund 5000feet... cold... when started climbing not cold liao turn hot.. haha but hor we like walk 50 m then panting like a dog liao!! cos the air there is dam thin.. but after a while get used liao then feel better.. super tiring... reach 11000feet at arnd 330 pm... 10 degrees lol.. slp at around 8 pm woke up at 1am... climb to the peak.. tiring.. but the reward is WOW!!!! THE SUNRISE! the volcano crater was indeed the most beautiful thing i ever seen!! i love it!! then return back down to 5000 feet and head back to ob.. gay shit tired!!!

ilove sabah..its really beautifull... don visit everyone.. its a place where to discover ur true self!! i love sabah!! i miss there and mark and brit!! both of u rocks!!! all i can say its a lifetime experience dat i wont forget!!!

wad a day

went to hq...wahahaha clt course ongoing.. their po tonight 630.. lol. commandant presentation.. i didnt do a thing cos i was in sabah.. i didnt present cos zhan feng help us all present.. yeah.. bloody slacker colin. got my icep badge..

haha ivan and jun hong leaving for canbera today..

lucky hui shan remind sok and sok remind me to take the anti malaria pills.. haha thx

boring day... stay home after the presentation... played pokemon and chat wif sok whole afternoon.. lol

ok dats all byebye all

back

hahaha lazy to post la... back had a real meaningful trip... real persever till the very end.. i am colin.. the real colin now!! really enjoy alot.. thx mark and brittany!!! i love u both! kinabalu rocks the world.
really nice trip!!
do go if possible!!
haha lazy to post the rest..
tired!!
may post some fotos.. later barh!!
thx to all! especially to mark anthony( i like his name), britanny, iskandar and mdm azhrina!!!

another boring day... stay home all day and played pokemon... lol..

its a great difference... u cares for me so much last time... now u don even care at all... u would always sms me last time but u nvr now... its a big difference...i really don wish to return... so if i don return, just wanna let u noe.. i love you...

boring

BORING!!!

i am trying my best... i am tring to take in everything by myself.. i am just pretenting to be fine... may i not return from my nxt trip obs sabah?? i really don wanna come back...

ya just acting to be very fine but actually my batteries are dying out.. i don noe how long more i can take it.. just got to hang on..

BACK!!!!

HEY I BACK!!! UPDATE

day 1...
went to airport.. haolan kailoon dorothy elaine and jy came to sent me off.. thanks guys!! watch loads of movie on the plae.. 7.5 hours on the plane to brisbane..

day 2...
reach brisbane... took a train to the domestic airport.. wth the ticket for 1 station cost 4 aussie which is singapore $5 plus!!!! and the distance between the 2 station is like boon lay to lakeside! took the domestic flight .. 1 hour to rockhampton.. warant pandian and sgt ivan pick us up and travel to shoal water bay... 2hrs trip..reach there and slack the rest of the day...

day 3..
when around the camp.. afternoon when to watch the primus artillery live fire.. damn cool!

day 4..
went to the capricon cave! did high ropes there.. fun! then go inside the cave.. damn nice.. the we nid to go through holes dat are no bigger than the toilet bowl.. must laid downand wriggle.. haha!have loads of fun.. but alot scratches.. bought a kangaroo.. i really love the kangaroo damn lot.. damn cute

day 5..
went to 3 beaches.. the wind there is damn damn damn big!!! have ice cream.. gay shit nice!!

day 6...
book out of the camp..went to the rockhampton state high sch... the ppl there very nice!have a great time there.. fell over damn badly... no4 pants ripped off and blood trickled down my fingers.. yucks... checked into the motel and have loads of fun.

day 7...
went to the park and shopping... bought lots of food,a wallet, a koala, pencils and a pencil case... went back to motel.. have loads of fun there..

day 8..
went to the rockhampton airport.. sgt ivan and warrent pandian byebye!!! we all love both of u! thanks alot.. took the domestic flight dat sucks(cos it vibrate the whole 1 hr flight! wth!!!!) to brisbane... we realise the cheif of army oso in dat flight!! damn lucky fopr us.. u noe his ranks?? 3 bloody stars u noe?? highest in sg!! he got like 2 bodyguards!!! wth!!!!! then back to sg!! bye australia.. bye sgt ivan and warrent pandian!! we all love both u.. we gonna miss u both!!!

back to sg!! took cab wif miss lee angel's mum and angel back home...
all photos in my friendster... thanks to warrent pandian sgt ivan mr liw mdm hezrina s/clt kairul clt kenneth kuan yew jericho kian siang zhan feng gazali, angel and aishah!!! have loads of fun wif u all!! DO VISIT MY FRIENDSTER FOR PICTURES!!!

U GUYS ROCKS!! EX WALLABY ROCKS!!!!

last entry

haha byebye ppl take care all iloveyou

last day..

bye ppl byebye..take care all bye!!!!!!!! for wadever reasons, ilove you

update

went to watch stardust ytd... superb movie.. everyone please go watch.. went to imm today.. bought a new pair of shoes.. counting down to the number of days i left...


may my wish can true... cos i really do... love you...

haha my song can le.. lol thx to wei jun!

went out wif angel,aishah, kuan yew and jericho today! lol!went to orchard just to meet.. then head to chinatown to buy souviners for the aus ppl... can say the price XP. then head to people's park to change currencies.. although it is in chinatown, all the money changers are indians...lol

new song

hey guys! theres a new song i uploaded.. do play it.. i don noe y it cant autoplay.. so please scroll down and press the play button urself.. sorry for the inconvience cause.. plya it!

UNDATE

haha.. our sec 2 got 3rd for orienteering com on wed..


thursday:
went to the neighbourhood to collect newspaper.. super tired!alot!

friday..
went to hq for briefing and bonding session..realise dat miss lee ling horng's sis(angel) oso ncc de.. going to brisban wif her oso.. made several new friends..
then shi xiong called..went to jp to meet him.. he treated us billybombers and movie.. thank you!!!! reach home around 1130.. tired... FUN DAY!

today.. my cousin wedding... haha didnt turn up..lol!boring day!

I MISS YOU AH MA!

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Another 1.. i am in this for the longest period of time.. but.. u seems to care me the least... i had nvr done anyhing dat let u down but y are treating me like dat...

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donnoe wad to say.. all i can do is to not disturb.. kept everything to myself.. silence myself...hais...last time u wan a sweet, i gave it to u immediately, even when i was about to give someone else.. tis i wan a sweet u don wanna give me... instead u are about to give someone else... y am i treated tis way? can u please tell me?

is my instinct right?

shld be... there is smth between both of u... definately... others may not noe.. i realise it...

over

over... u said i am the best thing dat ever happen to u... but now... shld be the worst and most disgusting thing dat ever happen to u right? something u wanna just throw out of the window...
things change very quickly.. a year it has been... 11 oct 06 went to cck... still have the neoprints wif me... 24 nov 06 went to vivo... happy...

exams are finishing... holidays going to be burn... early november..Australia cadet exchange programme... away for some time.. end november to early december... sabah malaysia... ncc outward bound school... open hse... drums practice... cca display...

to all band members: sorry cant attend ur concert.. really wish to.. but not in sg.. in sabah... sorry...

OVER

finally got the time to get online...

monday...
went to sch... handphone off itself... my mum couldn't get me... ah ma passed away at 1038 nuh hospital... exactly 85 yrs old.. its her birthday... rush down to choa chu kang.. the yellow cloth had all set up.. my ah ma havent come yet..she came awhile after i came... kneeled down... around 4 plus the ceremony started... she was place into the casket..stay there until 9 plus... cried...

tuesday...
went to sch.. went to cck after sch... mooncake fastival today.. didnt played wif candles.. only joysticks and hell notes...went home around 1030.. tired..

wednesday...
hao lan kailoon tammie and jing yi came to the funeral... thx guys... went home around 1045.. tired....

thursday...
went to cck after eng paper... ritual start at 3 plus... ended at 1 am plus... ah ma come and take the money, house, gold and siler mountains... went home at around 115am.. sec last day... time flies... super tired...

today...
took cab down after chinese paper... ritual started.. last look at ah ma... look escort for ah ma... board bus to mandai... several little ceremony there.. when the casket reach the hall.. its like an escalator but horizontal.. brought ah ma nearer to the furnace... lifted the casket...the guy ask us to call out ah ma for the very last time...into the furnace... cried real hard... byebye ah ma... rest in peace... the feeling is sour and hard to explain... cried and cried.. byebye... sorry...ah ma... went to the temple.. the monk there chant for quite sometime...bye bye ah ma...

born lunar calender 8 month 14... died 8 month 14... exactly 85 yrs old... ah ma may u be born wif a good life nxt lifetime...

going back to mandia tmr morning to take the ashes...
mood:super super super sad...bye ah ma zai jian...

my instinct was right

went to nuh again... nth much.. morning was scary but afernoon was ok... at least she can breathe wif the mask on.. morning she cant even breathe wif the mask...




after all my instinct is acurate.. very acurate... nvm if u wanna keep on bluffing urself.. whats true is the truth... u did like him...

sorry...

i am sorry.. its all my fault... please punish me and leave her alone... please.. let her breathe... i am really really sorry.. i didnt met the time.. its my fault.. not hers.. just leave her alone please... its all my fault... i cant meet the time limit...sorry..

time to pay...

I guess the time has come.. its time for me to pay the price.. i didnt met the time given and its time to serve my punishments... just throw everything towards me.. leave her alone.. shes already 80plus years old.. let her enjoy her life please.. don touch my family... we are celebrating her b'day tis sat.. so please.. just leave her alone.. please let her out of the hospital.. let her enjoy her b'day at home... torture me, kill me, do wadever u wan.. just leave her alone! please.. its my matter .. i doesnt concern her at all.. its all my fault.. so please do wadever u wan to me and leave her alone..

haolan.. i don have a choice.. i wont do anything silly... just follow wad i say if dat day comes...

pissed day

Everyone is so pissed today.. haix... mr govin walk in... napped all those with long hair..8 got caught.. hais kailoon came back wif his hair very short.. can see dat he's very sad.. but i find him nicer wif the new hair.. the 4 period english.. don noe wad ms chan doing.. hais.. annot even control the class.. so bloody inconsiderate ppl shout here shout there.. making hao lan and jeremy pissed.. wad a day.. but of cos all these cant affect me cos i the knife is already in my heart... i don care bout those kind of stuff.. i care bout 'u noe who'. nvm.. come on colin stop thinking bout it!!
come on everybody... cheer up.. those let trival matters affect us... cheer up guys... and girls of cos...
keep asking u to eat, but i just cant eat... havent had nice appetite for the past few meals.. i tink ican only eat during recess.. oso donnoe y...
... guys rmb wad i asku guys to do.. i believe the day is nearing.. esp u jeremy...

its the end..

I walk and walk for months... smooth paths... rocky paths.. finally i reach the end of the cliff... its a long way..it has been sweet, sour and bitter.. sweat, blood and tears...i didnt expect to reach so quickly... few more weeks.. its almost a year.. i made it... u didnt... i tried my best.. no regrets..if given a chance again, i will still pick this path.. cos i grew up alot from tis year of pain and sweetness.. i am proud of mself.. 1 year its going to be.. i can make it... nearly gave up but hang on... but u.. cant make it... well good luck to u and 'u noe who i am toking bout'... 1 year to reach the end point... the cliff... its a long way down to the sea now... i wonder how long will i take to reach the water... i and not walking... i am tired... i am flying... down... painful yet sweet it has been... 1 YEAR..i made it...u didnt...

stop lying..

stop lying... its so obvious... ur just denying... thers something... don tell me nth....

i still cant smile...

....y cant i be dead now??? how i wish i can dead... RIGHT NOW!!!

i donnoe wad to say

... today just sucks like hell... it just sucks... first woke up at 530, intending to follow part b for orienteering... then rain..cancelled..went to breakfast wif part c... went home after dat...the hao lan say he very sian.. actually wanted to catch a movie.. then to day sat so very ex.. went pool instead.. today super little ppl.. surprise...

sucks!y cant i just ... ah donnoe how to phrase.. it just sucks!!y such little things,i cant even get it done??!! i am just 1 big failure!!! 1 useless hopeless retarded idoit... i am just wasting the resources on earth!!! i sucks!!! how i wish a kind soul will drive a car and knock the bloody hell out of me... make me bleed.. make me feel the pain... kill me... i said KILL ME!!! i am just 1 BLOODY SUCKER!! i am worse than the sars bacteria! so please someone out there just KILL ME!!! i cant do it myself for wadever reason dat i myself oso don noe... so KILL ME PLEASE!!!!

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Tmr going for senior spec... so much hwk for this holiday!!!!!! went out on friday to celebrate tiffany's b'day... haha quite fun.. ytd went back to sch to paint the ncc room.. its raining paint when we paint the ceiling.. in the end my specs hair and shirt all kanna haha but fun.. we ran around half naked all around the sch haha... hey to all cadets who read tis post.. thursday training is 8 to 12 not 9 to 12.. and help to spread...

kinda boring... havent cut my hair, havent pack my bag... and havent practice the mutual topics!!!!! tmr morning nid to return back to sch for painting again.. and chemistry practical.. then must rush back and book into ang moy quee camp...booking out at 5pm on wed..

note to myself: rmb to help mr chia take the certificate template for the part D....

hey ppl out there the picture on the previous post is fake 1... i drew them haha so don wu hui and stop asking haha

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lol long time no update le... haha ok tammie i updat ok? haha
i didnt noe tis before i read ur blog.. i am sorry..
time flies.. going to be a yr soon...
shattered pieces of my love is all around on the floor.. grab it please...
common test over.. sian tmr must go hq for senior spec briefing...


i am really tired... physically and mentally.. and u noe wad is draining me out.. its painful.. i am really tired...